Paint that shit gold.

So the blog has been lacking and I do apologize. I've been out every weekend for the past month and I believe last weekend was my tipping point. 

I am searching for something. Sometimes it's something new, sometimes it's something more familiar. I take each day as they come and every feeling along with them. Some days I laugh and some days I cry. I run, run, run errands or pick away at details. 

I've met so many new and interesting people. I've stepped out of some major comfort zones and really enjoyed myself in the process. As usual, I am growing and learning and soaking everything up. 

It feels strange at times to walk around the same city you've lived in for so long and have it feel brand new. I've fallen backward and been pushed forward. I am still trying to get all my little ducks in a row but I am confident I will be there soon. 

I am amazed by all my possibilities. I really, really am.

It's so strange how people move in and out of our lives. People I swore I'd never see again, I spend whole weekends with. 

I am looking for positivity and sincerity and maybe a little sacrifice. My list hasn't changed. If I really think about it .. I want the same things for myself. The same things I've deserved and desired for so long.

I owe everything I have to God. I can't explain it any further than that. It's a feeling I just can't vocalize.

I haven't blogged because I feel like I have nothing important to say. A lot of things I want to blog about would just be a regurgitation of previous posts.

That being said, I hope you all are experiencing new things and soaking them up, as well. Keep working hard and moving forward. I'm right there with you -- I promise!